I'm cranky, I'm bitchy, I'm feeling overwhelmed and undervalued. However you want to phrase it.
That being said, I have been doing the best that I can (with my stressed out and chaotic life) to follow the tenants and let it go. But:
I work at a job I HAVE to, not that I WANT to in order to support my family. This means that I cannot get away from some toxic situations (classism) and I have to work in a job that does not fulfill my passions.
I have a lot on my plate and work every day to not complain to everyone all of the freaking time, though it really feels like I do (sorry to friends).
Classism is when you are at work and people who are above you ignore you or treat you like a second class citizen because of how much you get paid. Doesn't always happen and it can be VERY insidious.
So here is where my Buddhism rant comes in. Buddhism is all about accepting your emotions and finding your center. But the monks who talk about this are living their life as monks. I can tell you that around 80% of the people in my very large building would love to do something other then what they are doing, but cannot because they have to support their families in this feudalistic/capitalist society.
I want to be able to buy my kids ice cream on Fridays and have yarn to knit. I want to be able to pay bills.
Would I rather quit my job and be a therapist? Fuck yeah! But I cannot support 4 people on 38k. Oh but wait, that must be my fault right?
I'll just put my Queen Irritable hat on for the day and look forward to when I can relax and knit while watching Netflix and cuddling with my kids.
This week of hell needs to end.
That being said, I have been doing the best that I can (with my stressed out and chaotic life) to follow the tenants and let it go. But:
I work at a job I HAVE to, not that I WANT to in order to support my family. This means that I cannot get away from some toxic situations (classism) and I have to work in a job that does not fulfill my passions.
I have a lot on my plate and work every day to not complain to everyone all of the freaking time, though it really feels like I do (sorry to friends).
Classism is when you are at work and people who are above you ignore you or treat you like a second class citizen because of how much you get paid. Doesn't always happen and it can be VERY insidious.
So here is where my Buddhism rant comes in. Buddhism is all about accepting your emotions and finding your center. But the monks who talk about this are living their life as monks. I can tell you that around 80% of the people in my very large building would love to do something other then what they are doing, but cannot because they have to support their families in this feudalistic/capitalist society.
I want to be able to buy my kids ice cream on Fridays and have yarn to knit. I want to be able to pay bills.
Would I rather quit my job and be a therapist? Fuck yeah! But I cannot support 4 people on 38k. Oh but wait, that must be my fault right?
I'll just put my Queen Irritable hat on for the day and look forward to when I can relax and knit while watching Netflix and cuddling with my kids.
This week of hell needs to end.
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